“Everything I desire is within me.” 21-Day Meditation Challenge…Chopra Center
Evidently I struggle with scarcity mentality. I wouldn’t have thought it.
Chopra’s “Abundance” meditations have opened up a new world for me. I am free to follow a path of expectation of the best.
I thought I was already doing that.
Until I found this freedom in realizing that I have an abundance of time to write.
Until my skewed perception of my body floated throughout my day in the most unflattering of ways which created wonky attitudes about what I can and cannot eat.
Until I recognized that my belief that I have an abundance of energy propels me out the door for my walk. And that my love of the fall can encompass picking up leaves in the neighbor’s yard to feed the worms in my garden.
Until I comprehended that abundance is available everywhere; especially in my mind and heart.
Until I accepted that if I forget that I have abundance…I have an abundance of teachers to remind me.
Why is it so easy for me to accept others’ assessment of me…good or bad?
Deepak Chopra defines self-referral as “The experience (…) that our internal reference point is our own spirit, and not the objects of our experience. The opposite of self-referral is object-referral. In object-referral we are always influenced by objects outside the Self, which include situations, circumstances, people, and things. In object-referral we are constantly seeking the approval of others. Our thinking and our behavior are always in anticipation of a response.”
This seems simple. I, after all, live with me on a day-by-day basis. I may not know who I am all of the time, but I surely know who I am not.
Even still, I am struggling to see myself as worthy because I have been judged as unworthy. I am questioning my heart because I have been told that my love isn’t pure and true. Mean and thoughtless acts have been attributed to me and so I am questioning my motives.
Before I can totally deny all allegations I must examine my feelings of joy when someone finds me wonderful. I need to remember that I have been given credit for worthy deeds and accepted accolades.
Ultimately, I check in with my own soul. I expand with the peace and love within and return to what is true for me.
It’s a journey.
There is beauty in the path to change.
I just returned from a month’s stay in Italy. While there I began Deepak Chopra’s latest 21-Day Meditation Challenge.
Since I have re-established meditation as a ritual in my mornings, my life has changed for the better. So, although I would continue daily meditation without his challenge, it is good for me to hear the homily each day. It helps me focus on aspects of my life that I might ignore.
Day 17 is about loving change. It reiterated what I have always said, “I like change as long as it is my idea.”
Change is especially difficult for me in my own environment. It seems that if I do something twice, it is a habit. And even harmful habits quickly become a way of life.
In a flicker of a thought in this meditation I realized why I travel alone for periods of time. It is to pick myself up and place myself in a situation where change is inevitable. I must examine who I am and what I do on a minute-by-minute basis. There is no one else on which to foist off the truth.
I follow the life lessons of Oprah and step out of my own box. I change.
And I try to bring the changes home with me.