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A Reminder for Today and the Coming Year

“If you have fear of some pain or suffering, you should examine whether there is anything you can do about it. If you can, there is no need to worry about it; if you cannot do anything, then there is also no need to worry.”     Dalai Lama XIV

And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? Matthew 6:27 English Standard Version

Many a day has passed over thee whilst though busied thyself with thy fancies and idle imaginings. (…)” Bahá’u’lláh 

If you are depressed you are living the past. If you are anxious you are living in the future. If you are at peace you are living in the present. Lao Tzu, Tao te Ching

“Oh soul, you worry too much. You have seen your own strength. You have seen your own beauty. You have seen your golden wings. Of anything less, why do you worry? “ Rumi, Sufi poet

I don’t believe that any faith, any spiritual path, or any wise leader in any century would tell me that my worries would have a positive affect on outcome.

Deep breath…

The Student

 

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Be Still and Know…

It’s hard to get at the root of fear.  My sister and I have looked at it from all directions as her surgery time approaches. I reassure her with what our father told us; that if we are panicky, it is a false fear.  If it is real, God gives us the grace to see anything through.

My sister and I are also blessed with a family “knowing” that assures us or warns us, according to the knowledge. Although I have no strong feelings about this surgery, my sister “knows” she will be fine. And she has trouble believing what she feels when the anxiety hits.

And so we examine the fear.

Fear of death.

Fear of change by stroke or other impairment as a result of the surgery.

Fear of how life can change in a split second.

The greatest fear is of destruction of faith.  Not that our faith demands the outcome we seek. In our world, faith must carry the acceptance that we don’t always know what is the best outcome. There are times when our Higher Power has more answers than we have.

What is inconceivable for either of us is to contemplate the loss of our true compass.  Our knowing. That if, in fact, my sister’s self-assurance is wrong, then her life has lost the inner direction that has guided her infallibly in the times when she paid attention.

I am feeling the despair in her fear.  It is the bleak glimpse of chaos.

We must conquer fear and believe.

Life Student

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Restless Days

This is my second day of true discomfort.

I awoke yesterday morning with that certain inner restlessness that is a harbinger for a day without purpose.  How can I have purpose when I don’t know what I want and don’t have any idea of what I want to do.

If I were an alcoholic I would have a drink for breakfast.

Yesterday when I recognized the feeling, I meditated and talked to myself about what I must do.

I must figure out a purpose.  It could be small, but it must be linear and concrete.  Something to soothe the nameless anxiety.

Which is hard to do when my sister is visiting and my husband wants us to go have a coffee.  And I don’t want to miss a minute with either of them.

 

After my sister left, I gave myself a concrete, physical task.  I needed to to some painting at a rental.  I would accomplish something that must be done.  And yet, driving there I was in such deep grief that everything seemed black and I was near tears.  I couldn’t reach the heart of it.

May I add that it was two days before Christmas.  I don’t have any shopping to do, but I do have a house to clean and food to make for company on Christmas Day.  I’m not uptight about what I have to get done.  I’m uptight that I’m not uptight about it.

I won’t even describe the wandering, useless meanderings of my life yesterday.  At least I went to a movie with my husband last night.  I made him happy.

 

I am restless and without anchor again this morning.  I have some new thoughts.  No answers.

Maybe it is my lifelong struggle between my longing to be with friends and family and to do it all perfectly, and my urge and need to be totally alone, unscheduled, untrammeled…expressing myself through my writing which is a solitary pursuit.

 

If it is some deep inner loss, unfaced, unmanaged and unacknowledged, I don’t know what it is.

 

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