If you look at what you have in life,
You’ll always have more.
If you look at what you don’t have in life,
You’ll never have enough. ~ Oprah Winfrey ~
I am hard on myself. I didn’t realize how much until a recent injury coupled with a new class on coursera.org called, Know Thyself.
It was hard for me to miss my continual allusions to my own carelessness and mindlessness in burning myself with hot grease. Finally my husband put a stop to the verbalization of my thoughts by his comment, “That’s why they call them accidents, Love.”
It didn’t stop my thoughts.
In one of the first few lectures of my class the professor asked us to write down a list of our own traits. When I tried to think of descriptors I was constantly qualifying… Honest? Well, not always, sometimes I avoid the truth. Loving? Well, maybe some days but don’t irritate me on my bad days. Caring? Of whom? When?
I began to see the pattern of my self-criticism. And so I watched myself for the next week.
Now I know that I have more work to do than I realized. Not by becoming more honest, caring and loving, etc. But to let go of my personal goal of perfection and see myself as human. To see myself as more instead of less.