The Problem of Attachment

Fall colors“That nothing is static or fixed, that all is fleeting and impermanent, is the first mark of existence. . .Everything. . .is always changing, moment to moment.”  Pema Chodron

NOOOOOO….

What is it in me that hates change?

My heart aches for the spring flower that will fade in a day.  I create a bouquet of lovely fall branches and immediately dread the moment when it will wilt and crumple.

An infant grasps my finger and I yearn for the soft strength of that moment to last.  I sit with my sister and want to cling to her. Silently, I refuse to let her leave.

I want permanence.  I want stability. I want to know that what I love will continue to be a part of my life. I am terrifed of even the smallest loss.

I realize the fallacy in this.  I recognize the problem.

The moment.  The moment.  The moment.  Live in it.  That’s the instruction.

It’s a difficult lesson for me.

The Student

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