I wrote this on December 31st of last year.
“I speak without thinking and say things that require backing down or apologizing. I move without planning, getting myself committed to things I don’t want to do and bruising myself on whatever door I left open (dishwasher?) in order to dash to my next tsetse fly moment.
Yet, because of my particular problems with ADD, I have put on my calendar to meditate each morning. Otherwise I just jump into my day without thought. Meditation doesn’t always quiet my mind, but it quiets my body for a little. I have set aside (on said calendar) 20 minutes to step into silence and stillness.”
As I scroll through past drafts and read my unfinished thoughts, sometimes I am puzzled. Where was I going? What was my point?
On this one I am laughing.
I have been true to my intention to meditate at least once a day. I needn’t look at my calendar to remind me.
Yet I still speak and move without thinking.
But what the heck… for twenty minutes or more each day, I’m not hurting anyone.