Acknowledging my actions in the past is huge. The harmful behaviors, words and even the thoughts from yesterday or twenty-five years ago have made their mark. Those scars may have healed over or they be open wounds which still itch and burn.
As I grow and learn I would like to be judged on where I am right now in my spiritual journey. I would like to be recognized for the baby steps I have taken and the changes I have made.
The Rolling Stones told me the truth, though, “Oh, you can’t always get what you want.”
I am allowed to forgive myself. I’m allowed to make amends for what I can remember. But I never have been and never will be able to dictate others’ perceptions of me.
I ask for forgiveness. I hope for healing. I continue to learn.